I haven’t written in awhile. It’s a new year. Actually we are 47 days into this new year so maybe it isn’t too new anymore.
Everyone has a word for the year and I had sat with Jesus one morning right before the new year started and I knew my word but I hated it so I took the liberty of changing it. Just like that. Presto chango. Only thing is, when I said my word for the year was acknowledge, I knew I was a big liar. I was mainly lying to myself but still lying.
So here’s what I know and what I tried to “unhear” in my spirit. The Holy Spirit gave me the word still. Still. As in, Be still and know. Sit, in silence, commune with Me. And I have the hardest time and I don’t like being still so I said acknowledge seemed much better, right?
Wrong. It’s funny when God tells you something you almost always know but if you’re me, you fight that thing for awhile. Because I’m hard headed and I just don’t want to get into those deep places. Being still would mean deep reflection and deep reflection might mean deep change or deeper worship or deeper relationships or deeper purpose or something that may just be uncomfortable at first.
So now I have acknowledged (see what I did there 😉) that my word for 2020 is actually still. Being still doesn’t just mean I’m meditating all the time and just sitting on my couch more. It means stillness in the busyness of life. It means sensing the Holy Spirit and the truths of the Word daily as I go into an all out war for hearts and souls. And yes, it does also mean making time to be still and in the presence of the Lord.
I don’t know what all this will teach me but it’s already unearthing some pretty crazy things. Attitudes in my heart and toward others that absolutely have to change. In the stillness, I’m learning to listen to the new directions the Lord is taking my heart and life.
So, as I’m fully still (albeit a foot tap) I will wait and see what good things will happen in 2020.
Psalms 46:10 “Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the Earth.”
Lord, Maybe this really is the best thing. To be still and know. Be still and know that You are God. To know that You are the God of our lives and the Lord over all the things that happen to us now and forever. Give us that upward focus daily. Amen